10k and stuff

[Mercutio]

I haven't been posting lately because, frankly, for the last couple months I've been just about as empty and depressed as I've ever been. I haven't had anything I wanted to say or to talk about. I've been sleeping with any time I wasn't working and that is literally all I've been doing.

I was kind of hoping that if I waited long enough, something good might happen, and I'd have something positive to talk about.

On Thursday, August 2nd, my ex, who is a very dear friend if nothing else, had a stroke.

Apparently it was pretty minor as far as strokes go but... she's 31 and she had a stroke. Strokes are shocking and awful when you hear that they happen to people who are twice her age. I had no idea what to do or what to say when confronted with that, and I still don't. But the good thing is, it wasn't her time and I still have my friend. That's the best thing I can think of. Certainly it is a thing I can be grateful for.

Several people did make an effort to find out what has been going on with me. I'm still not really in a mood to spend time on forums or for that matter around people, but it has been pointed out to me that since my social circle is so limited, some contact with humans is probably better than none at all, so I thought I'd at least let everyone know that I am alive. I am occasionally catching up on threads even if I'm not omnipresent at the moment. Mainly I'd just like to thank everybody for being around and reading this much of my stupid crap.

I really wish I had something better than this to say for the 10,000th time I press the 'submit' button.

 

[LOST6200]

Haung in there, man! I hope she makes a good recovery.

You know we all care so very much about you and have been worried lately. And yes, you should post more ferquently if only to express your feelings.

 

[ddrueding]

As your new title aptly points out, you belong here more than anyone. Good, bad, or indifferent.

I'm glad you decided to come back, I'm sorry to hear about your friend.

I hope to hear more from you in the future.

 

[jtr1962]

I too wish I had something deeper to say in honor of your 10000th post but I don't. In your recent absence we could only at best fill-in for you, not replace you. Over the years you've had your ups and downs. You've been a part of the ups and downs of the entire membership. I hope this place has always given you comfort no matter how bad things have gotten. Truth is we all suffer dark times. It's part and parcel of the human experience. In the long run it forges us so we have the strength to go on, to meet head on what's around the next bend. Believe me if I say I've been where you are, and I still don't have all the answers. Or maybe that is the answer-to wake up each day and not know what life will throw at you, or how you will deal with it. People far wiser than I have pondered such matters in vain. About the only thing I've learned is to enjoy what you can when it comes along. Remember it to carry you through those dark times. In the end we all go to the same place. We might as well make the most of the journey there.

A great big thank you for all your valuable contributions throughout the years. And I hope your friend makes a full recovery. Few things in life are more tragic than untimely illnesses befalling a such a young person.

 

[paugie]

It is a relief to know we have you.

And we can give thanks that your friend has survived her stroke.

I continue to wish for all the best for you and all you hold dear.

10,000 is great! keep trucking!

 

[Fushigi]

Well, I'll 'ditto' the above comments. Your posts have been some of the most useful and sometimes most entertaining this forum has seen. Even if you see little value in the real world, please understand that you are highly valued here in the virtual.

If you would like to get together to talk - geek talk, people talk, whatever - feel free to PM me. I'm still in the area, probably under 90 minutes away.

Give our collective regards to your ex. I'm sure we all wish her a speedy and full recovery. It is always shocking to hear about younger people having medical issues that are commonly associated with the elderly.

 

[e_dawg]

Thank you for checking in Merc. I think that the honourable and caring intentions behind your 10,000th post in spite of your personal challenges make it one of the better and more cherished posts here, at least for my money.

I can't say that I know what you're going through or what you've been through, but I know that when I have gone through tough times in my life, I have turned to SF for support and healthy diversion. Sometimes it's just to lurk and read posts (many of which you write) to take my mind off things and sometimes it's just to know that others are there just a mouse-click away... my virtual Cheers, where everybody knows my (screen) name. Sometimes, it's to know that others are going through some tough times and they're battling through it. That gives me strength.

I've been going through a rough patch too, with my father being diagnosed with cancer, my aunt passing away, my uncle being diagnosed with chronic renal failure, and breaking up with my gf. Not to overshadow your hardships, but perhaps to know that we're hurting too in some way, and we'll all get through this together.

My heart goes out to you and your ex and I wish you both strength and happiness.

Sincerely,
-e_dawg

 

[Clocker]

Sorry to hear about your friend, Merc. I'm glad she's still around for you and that you have at least stopped by to check in. Hope to see you around here more in the future as your participation is definitely missed.

 

[mubs]

Merc,

Everything I would say has been said more eloquently by others. Don't disappear again, please.

e_dawg:

I'm sorry to hear of what you're going through. Hang in there.

 

[Bozo]

Ditto all the above.

Bozo :joker:

 

[Handruin]

I'm a little late to the game with this message, but that doesn't mean I don't share the same welcome back that everyone else has offered.

You've certainly been the most vocal about your personal life in what feels like a reach out to let us know more about who you are and what you go through on a daily basis. I'd of hoped over the years that we (as in the members here at sf) could be some sort of happy ground for you when in time of need. I'm sorry to hear about your ex, who has been both a friend and also a tender spot in your life in some ways none of us may ever understand.

I hope you know that people here do care about you even though we don't always agree on things. It's quite the odd thing some times since many of us have never met face to face. That still doesn't mean I'd hope the best for you and that you could on some level at least find more happiness to offset what you have now. Even though you don't always have a positive outlook for yourself, I hope for one some day. As mubs very simply and perfectly said, hang in there.

-Doug

 

[Chewy509]

Congrat's on the 10K post, and sorry to hear about your friend. Like everyone else, it's good to see you back. And as Mubs (and Handruin quoted), hang in there...

 

[LOST6200]

Hey, I satated "Huang in there" first, but typos dont; count. I just want Merc to post more.

 

[Handruin]

You did say it first, sorry I missed it.

 

[ddrueding]

Haung in there...

"Huang in there"

Inconsistency is the key to your typo brilliance...you didn't even misspell it the same way.

 

[mubs]

The copyright acknowledgment in my post must have got deleted accidentally.

 

[Tannin]

I don't get to stop in here so much these days, but I always enjoy reading your posts, Merc. Thankyou for much wisdom over the years, and a good chuckle now and then as well.

 

[LOST6200]

Isn the condition stabilized with mediactos now?